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twisted relife among an unreal reality ~~quode me nutrit, me destruit~~
twisted relife among an unreal reality
by raspberrycola
Age: N/A  Sex: F

391 Entries
# Entry Date
1 Zach2 and pics :) 03/12/2008 03:15 GMT
2 Funny s..xual Story.. 22/11/2008 08:43 GMT
3 rantish i guess 20/11/2008 10:32 GMT
4 wavin good bye to yesterday.. 19/11/2008 02:45 GMT
5 seeing is believing 18/11/2008 11:39 GMT
6 :::days are numbered by nights::: 16/11/2008 02:25 GMT
7 living and learning for the most part 15/11/2008 01:59 GMT
8 creating paradise 13/11/2008 05:31 GMT
9 just give me something to get rid of him.... 12/11/2008 12:35 GMT
10 poopy face!, f.uc.ken depressed 12/11/2008 11:14 GMT
11 is the feeling mutual? i dont see me nemore 11/11/2008 09:29 GMT
12 ..maybe i got it bad? 07/11/2008 06:01 GMT
13 lame ass zach 04/11/2008 09:27 GMT
14 halloween.. 02/11/2008 08:33 GMT
15 wanthing so much, recieving nothing 28/10/2008 09:15 GMT
16 facedown..this is where he leaves me 27/10/2008 05:04 GMT
17 no shadows..no reflection here.. 26/10/2008 02:28 GMT
18 ..you say..i only hear what i want to.. 23/10/2008 06:33 GMT
19 i wont hear you anymore... 22/10/2008 03:04 GMT
20 make my way back home when i learn to fly... 21/10/2008 12:05 GMT
21 california dreamin on such a winters day 21/10/2008 08:57 GMT
22 understanding is an understatement 20/10/2008 08:09 GMT
23 lost in translation 19/10/2008 09:39 GMT
24 you are fighting everyday... 19/10/2008 08:20 GMT
25 waiting in the lost and found.. 17/10/2008 11:56 GMT
26 ..hell n heaven.. 15/10/2008 10:26 GMT
27 gravy 11/10/2008 11:31 GMT
28 9 times outta 10 its counter productive.. 11/10/2008 06:29 GMT
29 how can i find my words with u cloudin my thoughts 10/10/2008 10:36 GMT
30 ...need a money tree... 09/10/2008 04:01 GMT
31 ..enjoy the pain with accepting the grief 08/10/2008 05:02 GMT
32 :) i feel good abt me :) 06/10/2008 07:03 GMT
33 ...fuck my life!? : 02/10/2008 04:24 GMT
34 freaken out a bit 01/10/2008 05:12 GMT
35 i dont wanna be that kinda girl :( 30/09/2008 05:29 GMT
36 :( i feel sucky 28/09/2008 04:31 GMT
37 met the folks.. 23/09/2008 08:05 GMT
38 randomly grand 22/09/2008 09:41 GMT
39 Zach..Poem.. :) :) 21/09/2008 05:44 GMT
40 a nice guy?! [[and an asshole...]] 20/09/2008 12:53 GMT
41 ((woah))[[i dont kno]] 19/09/2008 06:45 GMT
42 5 guy weekend [pic] 17/09/2008 10:07 GMT
43 progression.. :( :( 11/09/2008 08:44 GMT
44 [[i need to get better]] :( 10/09/2008 07:20 GMT
45 [[frustrated]] 08/09/2008 07:07 GMT
46 naked pics..(ur not seein any)..phone sex..cops? 07/09/2008 06:48 GMT
47 happiness hates me.. 06/09/2008 08:10 GMT
48 i'll live..i guess..like always.. 03/09/2008 08:33 GMT
49 the nightmare...hell is back// 27/08/2008 07:50 GMT
50 misery...food...zumba 26/08/2008 06:54 GMT
51 i suck at life 25/08/2008 07:15 GMT
52 ..im desTROYing myself...i hate me 23/08/2008 10:13 GMT
53 [[counselling]]? i need you[[...]]self destruction 21/08/2008 08:50 GMT
54 [[maybe i'll just play dead for a while]] 19/08/2008 08:05 GMT
55 just getting up for the let down.. 17/08/2008 04:20 GMT
56 into college now...broken ribs 16/08/2008 08:36 GMT
57 time to go...this is goodbye she said 10/08/2008 10:59 GMT
58 [[[[i didnt deserve this pain]]]] 09/08/2008 08:36 GMT
59 repitition makes me tired and angry... 08/08/2008 07:09 GMT
60 club drama...so much fun... 02/08/2008 06:53 GMT
61 ...blowjob :/ i hate myself 30/07/2008 10:00 GMT
62 my bad luck...it gets me..raped... 29/07/2008 09:28 GMT
63 work bitchin and sex dream 22/07/2008 06:15 GMT
64 work and weight 19/07/2008 05:08 GMT
65 beautiful, rape, ap, abortion, unordered 15/07/2008 08:43 GMT
66 long time...sorry 14/07/2008 09:45 GMT
67 [[[long gone]]] 08/07/2008 07:59 GMT
68 ...i will live? abortion... 26/06/2008 12:04 GMT
69 [[[[abortion needed]]]] 26/06/2008 10:23 GMT
70 raped~ baby?!? NO 25/06/2008 08:24 GMT
71 7 am and crabby[pregnant?] 23/06/2008 05:50 GMT
72 love...description or whatever... 22/06/2008 11:22 GMT
73 tired and pooped and moving 21/06/2008 07:57 GMT
74 rambling and my tattoo :) 19/06/2008 09:14 GMT
75 my bday yesterday and mike... 18/06/2008 10:28 GMT
76 random.ish work.. weight...[[diet plan]] 16/06/2008 09:48 GMT
77 i am ashamed..weight 15/06/2008 10:36 GMT
78 stresssed again.... 14/06/2008 09:53 GMT
79 WVU 12/06/2008 10:06 GMT
80 tired 10/06/2008 08:24 GMT
81 WVU and creeper 07/06/2008 06:33 GMT
82 ..graduated...nice guy?!?..gas off?! 05/06/2008 11:50 GMT
83 frustrated... 04/06/2008 11:03 GMT
84 jaw hurts...mike... 04/06/2008 10:43 GMT
85 a lil bit bout me 03/06/2008 11:03 GMT
86 work...pain.... 03/06/2008 10:18 GMT
87 sitll here...thank you 03/06/2008 09:49 GMT
88 i hurt. i hate this 02/06/2008 10:54 GMT
89 kill myself or cut myself... 02/06/2008 09:17 GMT
90 almost quit and pain still...and update 01/06/2008 09:30 GMT
91 sum fvcked up shi+-suicide..... 30/05/2008 08:00 GMT
92 std testing-after the rape 29/05/2008 04:15 GMT
93 prom and party of course... 25/05/2008 04:35 GMT
94 thank you...and he came back for a visit 23/05/2008 07:45 GMT
95 Rape? help please... 21/05/2008 10:19 GMT
96 short update 17/05/2008 10:21 GMT
97 sick.';';';' 04/01/2008 07:08 GMT
98 rant..war...food...ex 29/12/2007 01:44 GMT
99 broken upped 26/12/2007 09:37 GMT
100 merry christmas 23/12/2007 12:17 GMT
101 rant. 21/12/2007 02:21 GMT
102 self controll...not 17/12/2007 09:22 GMT
103 dfasdf 16/12/2007 12:11 GMT
104 GOAL 16/12/2007 05:04 GMT
105 hey 03/08/2007 09:54 GMT
106 kuasfjlled 14/01/2007 09:41 GMT
107 Ï †µÏÑ|« Φ/¦ Íñ £¤v¢ ßëÇåü§¢ 19/12/2006 05:51 GMT
108 te amo 19/12/2006 05:47 GMT
109 early christmas and pic 17/12/2006 01:11 GMT
110 doobie doobie do 15/12/2006 05:54 GMT
111 im back.... 09/12/2006 06:07 GMT
112 bad memories 18/11/2006 04:24 GMT
113 marine boyfriend 27/07/2006 10:44 GMT
114 Angry!! 24/07/2006 10:27 GMT
115 sleepin..in the mind 17/07/2006 07:20 GMT
116 i have no clue waht to say here nemore 16/07/2006 01:37 GMT
117 confused and upset 12/07/2006 09:06 GMT
118 sad n happy n just mixed up 11/07/2006 07:52 GMT
119 crazy and mixed up 08/07/2006 11:07 GMT
120 miscarraige... 01/07/2006 03:48 GMT
121 broken computer... 18/06/2006 09:49 GMT
122 saddish..still 06/06/2006 09:39 GMT
123 im not pregnant.... 06/06/2006 08:53 GMT
124 depressed 03/06/2006 08:21 GMT
125 UGH!!!!! dud pregnancy test. pissy boyfriend 29/05/2006 11:16 GMT
126 still sad... 14/05/2006 10:12 GMT
127 sad.... 12/05/2006 05:10 GMT
128 so freaken confussed 05/05/2006 01:01 GMT
129 lil crazy day..n values 30/04/2006 01:30 GMT
130 my forever is ending 27/04/2006 10:36 GMT
131 pregnant i think.... 26/04/2006 09:05 GMT
132 me and matt...and a new job 12/04/2006 11:41 GMT
133 swollen liver, and what not 31/03/2006 01:21 GMT
134 swollen liver, and what not 31/03/2006 01:21 GMT
135 UPDATE!!! lol me and matt [[pic too]] 25/03/2006 01:00 GMT
136 dropped brolly....new guy lol kindof fun 12/03/2006 01:09 GMT
137 overwhelming saddness 11/03/2006 12:24 GMT
138 im queen muffin with selective reality 09/03/2006 10:31 GMT
139 hopeless mixed up chaotic mind 07/03/2006 10:19 GMT
140 sick of everything.... 05/03/2006 10:20 GMT
141 f***en dumbass mother f***er 04/03/2006 11:53 GMT
142 so many unanswered questions 03/03/2006 09:27 GMT
143 exhausted and sh*t 01/03/2006 10:30 GMT
144 ugh day 27/02/2006 09:45 GMT
145 f***en gearald a**h*** 26/02/2006 03:40 GMT
146 id ont kno whats goin on nemore 24/02/2006 10:40 GMT
147 MTDreaming and everyone else 23/02/2006 11:37 GMT
148 i guess sh*t doesnt change much 23/02/2006 09:20 GMT
149 sad depressed 17/02/2006 04:56 GMT
150 swimmin, brolly, world 15/02/2006 10:46 GMT
151 brolly...swimming...sick 13/02/2006 09:25 GMT
152 sh*tty ass nurse...missin brolly 10/02/2006 11:31 GMT
153 tony, personality, no brolly :(( 09/02/2006 09:45 GMT
154 fire in school, pretty good day...emo 07/02/2006 09:26 GMT
155 rly hate him so much.....why me?? 06/02/2006 09:02 GMT
156 N/A 05/02/2006 10:40 GMT
157 superbowl sucked! 05/02/2006 10:14 GMT
158 555deal 04/02/2006 08:25 GMT
159 sucky day 03/02/2006 10:46 GMT
160 brolly, blowjob, bedroom 02/02/2006 09:17 GMT
161 kindof boring, paint, brolly... 01/02/2006 10:10 GMT
162 soon...waiting..homeless? 31/01/2006 09:13 GMT
163 brolly...love.... 30/01/2006 09:34 GMT
164 f***face 29/01/2006 07:41 GMT
165 unaware of whats in my mind 27/01/2006 09:08 GMT
166 sh*tty giggly odd ass day 26/01/2006 09:48 GMT
167 in memory of Justin Yates 25/01/2006 10:14 GMT
168 i didnt play no one 24/01/2006 10:47 GMT
169 seahawks rock my socks 22/01/2006 10:43 GMT
170 sh*tty day 21/01/2006 07:26 GMT
171 last midterm! yay lol 20/01/2006 12:43 GMT
172 closure and taco bell! hehe 20/01/2006 09:38 GMT
173 feelin so f***en stupid...in love 19/01/2006 09:13 GMT
174 mcdonalds drama ... 18/01/2006 08:47 GMT
175 doin soemthing right...i think...my last resort 17/01/2006 07:33 GMT
176 trials and tribulations 16/01/2006 11:46 GMT
177 life is sucking 16/01/2006 09:42 GMT
178 sh*t kindof a day 16/01/2006 09:11 GMT
179 bitchin kindof bout adam 15/01/2006 01:59 GMT
180 kindfo very oddish maybe HAPpY!! 13/01/2006 10:39 GMT
181 coffee car handjob threesome? 12/01/2006 08:57 GMT
182 all dressed up an no place to go 11/01/2006 10:17 GMT
183 today kindof was well today :) :( 10/01/2006 08:25 GMT
184 oddish...saddish 09/01/2006 09:58 GMT
185 sweetheart and a**h*** 08/01/2006 12:13 GMT
186 everythigns fine now, at leat thats what i want 08/01/2006 10:41 GMT
187 soiled thoughts [idk why there soiled] 06/01/2006 08:14 GMT
188 an omg moment 05/01/2006 10:47 GMT
189 afraid... 04/01/2006 10:45 GMT
190 afriad. 04/01/2006 08:31 GMT
191 horrible 03/01/2006 11:12 GMT
192 i just dont love him... 03/01/2006 03:06 GMT
193 lovely start to 2006.... :( 02/01/2006 04:11 GMT
194 new year, new life...yet old feelings 02/01/2006 02:06 GMT
195 f***en diary, but i did it... 01/01/2006 11:38 GMT
196 happy new years 31/12/2005 12:40 GMT
197 hi..happynewyear 31/12/2005 09:55 GMT
198 im tired of this same old sh*t 30/12/2005 10:43 GMT
199 i aint no fred flinstone but i'll make ur bedrock 27/12/2005 12:09 GMT
200 odd..extreamly sad...and poem thingy... 27/12/2005 10:19 GMT
201 memory lane 25/12/2005 09:51 GMT
202 MERRY CHRISTMAS! not alotta drama either!..story.. 25/12/2005 08:07 GMT
203 happy retard...and 2005 list 23/12/2005 10:09 GMT
204 today!! im happy right now 22/12/2005 11:44 GMT
205 today... 21/12/2005 10:35 GMT
206 halfway though the door...and not happy...thoughts 20/12/2005 08:55 GMT
207 fallin but trying... 19/12/2005 08:00 GMT
208 locked in the basement, lost preliminary 18/12/2005 08:43 GMT
209 day today...idk 14/12/2005 09:28 GMT
210 not much good from today...but i added pictures 13/12/2005 07:09 GMT
211 i thought things were better 12/12/2005 08:48 GMT
212 my colossus is back--preliminary hearing 10/12/2005 07:46 GMT
213 uneventfully eventful and depressing 08/12/2005 07:11 GMT
214 uggh day..... 07/12/2005 08:24 GMT
215 to brolly...my promised letter 06/12/2005 08:47 GMT
216 random depression. 06/12/2005 06:02 GMT
217 advice maybe? brolly stuff i guess 05/12/2005 05:40 GMT
218 i honestly am not sure what im thinkin ne more 03/12/2005 07:41 GMT
219 thinkin straight....i think... 02/12/2005 09:58 GMT
220 saddly, im not sure how to take this 01/12/2005 10:19 GMT
221 ..:cries:..:smiles:.. 30/11/2005 08:43 GMT
222 im rly not suren nemore 29/11/2005 08:12 GMT
223 im so so upset...advice? 28/11/2005 07:27 GMT
224 nostalgia...sucks ass 27/11/2005 07:08 GMT
225 some links..and today 27/11/2005 05:49 GMT
226 today of all days [i wrote] 26/11/2005 11:23 GMT
227 honeslty, i dont kno anymore 26/11/2005 02:37 GMT
228 love...i think 25/11/2005 08:13 GMT
229 psycho bitch... 23/11/2005 10:19 GMT
230 *..today.....~.....yadot..* 22/11/2005 09:59 GMT
231 no date, no restraining order... 19/11/2005 04:42 GMT
232 idk much nemroe,but i kno enough 18/11/2005 05:06 GMT
233 odds and ends.... 17/11/2005 09:19 GMT
234 chained to reality 15/11/2005 08:00 GMT
235 good, but mostly not 14/11/2005 09:48 GMT
236 song..... 12/11/2005 11:23 GMT
237 hi....... 12/11/2005 08:30 GMT
238 three times said 11/11/2005 16:08 GMT
239 quick 11/11/2005 07:04 GMT
240 happy is a stretch... 08/11/2005 08:40 GMT
241 f*** the rape charges 06/11/2005 09:02 GMT
242 never again saying nething 05/11/2005 10:07 GMT
243 sry everyone... 04/11/2005 09:17 GMT
244 police report doubts 30/10/2005 06:46 GMT
245 filed the police report.... 29/10/2005 17:49 GMT
246 thank u for for hlep with my last entry 29/10/2005 16:32 GMT
247 im scared again and i dont like it 29/10/2005 12:17 GMT
248 good advice 29/10/2005 11:08 GMT
249 i wish it was all that easy 27/10/2005 10:26 GMT
250 broken inside 25/10/2005 09:06 GMT
251 sum poems i wrote 22/10/2005 10:25 GMT
252 love 22/10/2005 07:13 GMT
253 i dont kno what ot write here 21/10/2005 06:50 GMT
254 i wish i was to dead to care 20/10/2005 10:23 GMT
255 things are better now! 18/10/2005 07:16 GMT
256 good bye to the past and everythign that aint righ 17/10/2005 09:57 GMT
257 better than this morning 16/10/2005 13:31 GMT
258 whts wrong with me?? 16/10/2005 12:04 GMT
259 depressy...iguess 15/10/2005 08:55 GMT
260 advice? would be great.. 15/10/2005 01:29 GMT
261 stressy day 14/10/2005 06:19 GMT
262 sad and happy, i guess 12/10/2005 07:58 GMT
263 doin so much better 11/10/2005 09:49 GMT
264 bad day dont even come close 10/10/2005 09:22 GMT
265 breath in now breath out 09/10/2005 12:08 GMT
266 so today.... 07/10/2005 16:17 GMT
267 f*** her gently 06/10/2005 18:41 GMT
268 i wish things were as good as i pretend 05/10/2005 09:02 GMT
269 frustraed, i mean i gotta go to the doctors! 04/10/2005 20:22 GMT
270 becuse of u im alive, for you im awake 04/10/2005 12:41 GMT
271 life 03/10/2005 23:03 GMT
272 just ugh good and bad 03/10/2005 17:30 GMT
273 happy vs sad 02/10/2005 20:34 GMT
274 deprived of all my thoughts 02/10/2005 17:16 GMT
275 one more time and im gonna snap 02/10/2005 12:18 GMT
276 idk 02/10/2005 01:00 GMT
277 ugh! i hate this feeling 01/10/2005 20:50 GMT
278 nervouse 01/10/2005 20:30 GMT
279 gawsh so boring 01/10/2005 19:58 GMT
280 random thoughts 01/10/2005 18:06 GMT
281 no party :( 01/10/2005 11:33 GMT
282 firday! 30/09/2005 12:00 GMT
283 who i am hates who ive been 29/09/2005 09:30 GMT
284 hi 29/09/2005 04:10 GMT
285 takin good advice 28/09/2005 09:27 GMT
286 ahhhh!! 28/09/2005 07:34 GMT
287 poem 27/09/2005 07:16 GMT
288 thank you! 27/09/2005 03:31 GMT
289 idk nemore... 26/09/2005 04:37 GMT
290 im sick and ranting... 25/09/2005 03:19 GMT
291 convo with adam...LONG lol 24/09/2005 05:26 GMT
292 some great quotes 24/09/2005 05:12 GMT
293 all these remind me of him 24/09/2005 02:21 GMT
294 wht to do? 24/09/2005 02:17 GMT
295 odd... 23/09/2005 08:08 GMT
296 usefull info 22/09/2005 07:18 GMT
297 stressful...gawsh 22/09/2005 06:29 GMT
298 idk nemore 19/09/2005 08:46 GMT
299 uggh 19/09/2005 05:00 GMT
300 wht can i do?? 18/09/2005 07:37 GMT
301 im so confused right now!! i need help 18/09/2005 07:26 GMT
302 Quod me nutrit, me destruit... 16/09/2005 09:52 GMT
303 because of you...poem 16/09/2005 09:10 GMT
304 i cried...it was denied tho 15/09/2005 05:38 GMT
305 upset..... 13/09/2005 07:50 GMT
306 confusion 12/09/2005 07:00 GMT
307 tornado AHH 10/09/2005 03:58 GMT
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